ARGH
Sunday, October 29, 2006

I blogged a really long one just now, and how did the computer repay me?

Bam!

No more.

Error.

All gone.

None left.

Nada.

Zilch.

And I'm pissed.

I'm not typing another one.





Swim


I finally went for my swim after four - or was it five? - days of pining after my dad to go swimming with me. Yeah, I know, I know, you're thinking What's the big deal about swimming?

Well, I've got no idea. Try asking someone else.

Oh yeah! I'm really pleased. And, due to lack of oxygen, I'm feeling quite (very) lightheaded at this moment. Somehow that doesn't bother me.

Yay! Swimming rocks.

I don't know why I'm blogging about swimming though, but let's just continue. And you must NOT stop reading.

Cuz swimming is a wonderful sport and you cannot just turn it away when someone is talking enthusiastically about it. Namely, me.

And my hands and fingers are shaking; I'd just realized that.

What I did in about thirty minutes:
1) 9 laps of frogs
2) 10 laps of freestyle
3) 1 lap of butterfly

Whee~

I'm still feeling lightheaded. Must've destressed a real lot.

"Th' peoplev th' world darin support'v peace."

I suddenly thought of this phrase so I typed it down.

Blah~blah~

What else should I talk about? Maybe it's time for bed. Okay. That's sounds like a good idea. Goodnight. My sister is listening to Jay Chou in our room, though.

And I wish a happy holiday for those in Shanghai and Beijing. I'm still missing you!

Tuesday: Shopping with Tiara
Wednesday: Dance, Violin Lesson
Thursday: Dance
Friday: Dance

That's it for this week...

*yawns*

Hmm, I did yoga with my mom on Saturday. Wow. Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. And hold it there. Sheesh.

Did a teeny weeny bit of chinese homework today. See, Miss Goody Goody is back. LOL.

And I'm quite pleased with my progress with my violin.

And I'm quite glad that I do not have a busy schedule. FREEDOM!

And I'm quite contented to have bought three books in the Metro booksale.

And I'm quite joyful that my split is coming around.

And I'm quite happy with my strawberry dipped in oozy CHOCOLATE!

And I'm quite sure that I need to cut my hair.

And I'm very sure that I'm contented with everything in my life right now.

Above is the summary of what I'd done during my absence in updating.

Toodles!





When happiness melts
Saturday, September 23, 2006

When the happiness melts
Like the ice left in the fiery sun
In the cave you wait
To see the beam of light
Streaming in from the bottom of the rock

Before you see light at the end of the tunnel
The only thing you can do
Is to wait in the darkness

Yet there are so many what ifs…
What if the light never comes?
What if the rock never moves?
What if the darkness never leaves?
What if it elopes me completely?

The rock blocking my light
Is like the heaviness on my heart
The light is my hope
Yet I cannot see
In the darkness I dwell
But what if for too long?

Broken twigs sit silently beside me
Already in two, already in pieces
There’s no life and there’s no feeling
Where is the comfort that I need?

A ring of light has no ending
But what if you are out of the circle?
Standing from afar
Wanting something that you do not have

What I’d have is enough
All the struggle
All the pain
All the sadness
They are controlling me
And I lose myself

An undefined feeling
The unrecognizable fear
The irresistible shaking
The inevitable fate is near

Tell me what and tell me now
Will I survive or will I die
An untreated infection would only spread
An unrequited love cannot be met

--

If you can read some sense from this, then you've more or less understood what I'm feeling. If not, be glad you're not in my world, cause it sucks right now.

Yep. You've guessed correctly. I'm stressed. And confused. I'd written this on instinct, with no changes made after the words came out. If there are grammar mistakes or impossible to understand sentences, forgive me.

Those who understood, please try and knock some sense into me, cause I really need some sanity right now.

I love you all.

Thanks for reading.

PS I really don't know what I'm writing or doing or studying. Help.

I'm tired.






Sunday, August 13, 2006

Singapore NDP 2006 Preview: Fireworks

Fireworks video.





Unlucky Friday
Friday, August 04, 2006

Today was a/an lucky/unlucky Friday, however you look at it.

I'd knew today would be a long day, what with CCAs and all. So I brought all my dance stuff, and braced myself for a tiring day. That morning was the same old routine. Met Nicole and the MRT station (she was running late though) and we walked up to school together. We had nearly reached school when we were talking...and walk...walk...walk...BOOM! I found myself on the floor with a twisted ankle. Cool, huh?

Pain shot through me up into my head until I felt my brains throbbing even worse than my ankle. Ouch. I sat on the ground a while, to see if it was gonna stop hurting. No such luck. I knew then that I was doomed. Started crying. Gosh, it was so embarrassing. But I couldn't help it. I don't know why I cried either. Perhaps I just felt like it and it seemed like a good excuse to. Haha.

Then along came Peak Deng. She stayed with me and Nicole. Thanks you two gals(: KS and LeeZW came along too. I was sure my eyes were red cause after making sure I needed no help, they left. Guys are afraid of girls' tears, I think.

Next, along came Cai laoshi, the one who accompanied us to Shanghai. I sprained my ankle once in Shanghai too, so I wasn't surprised when she asked, "Again?"

I was torn between laughing and crying. Haha. Not nice, your face feels weird.

Anyway, after that I felt better and Peak Deng and Nicole supported me all the way to school with me hopping on one leg. Cai laoshi went to find Sun laoshi for me, thank you. Nicole brought my bag up to class and helped me find XQ and Gina. Wasn't of much use, though, cause there was no medicine I could really use.

Sun laoshi came down then, and said I should go home. Poor Nicole went up and brought my bag down again. So sorry Nicole! Haahaa.

Sun laoshi then went to find Wang Bi Yu laoshi, cause she knew about sprained ankles, I think. (: Wang laoshi brought down a jing1 you2 or something and rubbed it hard against my ankle. I made a face but tried to keep my voice down. I'm SUCH a scaredy cat, but yes, that's me.

Dad came and drove me home. Before he came, though, when I saw HZ, I suddenly wondered where my specs were. GONE! I started crying and freaking out. SO EMBARRASSING.

Still dunno where my specs are, though.

Went home and slept first, cause no clinic was opened yet at 8am.

About later in the morning, we went to see Chinese doctor. Acupunture. YIKES. With electricity too. TOTALLY FREAKY. But my ankle got loads better. And I found that the needles weren't too bad. Go try them sometimes! But I was whiny though. I couldn't my whining voice either. LOL.

~

Finished my History. Yay!

~

"True friends stay by your side and comfort you, no matter what you are going through."





Everything
Monday, July 31, 2006

I woke up and 6am to have breakfast with my sister. She woke up to go to school and I actually woke up for homework. Am I desperate or what? Exactly.

I tried to finish DnT, history and the English research topics. I got only the last two. Then at 8.30am I headed to the MRT for Harbour Front to meet with RnE. We went to where else but Sentosa.

And I'd thought we were having a party or something, you know, just slacking there, enjoying the scenery and having fun. Instead we ran all over the pretty little (big) island, doing quests set by our dearest Sec 4s. They just love torturing us to make us remember them. Big time. But we all had great fun.

Well, running all around like mad people do sound like the most interesting thing you can do in Sentosa, doesn't it? (:

And then, at the Ferry Terminal, someone just came and gave us free cokes. Are we lucky or lucky? Lucky. Duh, of course.

Too bad then I had to leave at two. It was just when things got much easier and fun too! Argh, unlucky me had meeting to attend. So I left. I really envy those who stayed. They must have had so much fun!

Yep, met with HZ and SY at BK to discuss the chinese video. Watch out, 2D, we've got loads of work coming up! Look forward to it!

Then I came home to finish my DnT...unfortunately I had to go for tuition again at 7pm. Seriously, I don't think I'll make it up the hill to school tomorrow.

~

"Keep ugly words to yourself."





Takashimaya
Sunday, July 23, 2006

Yesterday was in school the entire day until 5pm. Today was supposed to be Studying Sunday. But I didn't have the mood to study just yet, hah. And they are giving us History test for Monday. Aren't teachers supposed to love their students-us?

Guess everyone has their problems.

I couldn't concentrate on studying, so I went out with my parents to Takashimaya. Had dim sum for lunch and ice blended chocolate after that. YUM. Perfect combination.

Someone's calling.

Bye





Not entirely satisfied
Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Warning: I'm actually scolding someone here, so if you feel uneasy please do not read. I just need this to be heard by the other party. Even if the person never does get the message.

As usual, my day wasn't all that great. Happiness never lasts. They come in small periods, and not all that frequently. It's a sad world, really.

So today, I had him lecture me about learning to supress my 'worries' and calm down and keep everything in. Fine. I'd let him off.

Next, he was the leader of our video group. We had a meeting today. All the members had to cancel off their time with friends or rest time at home. Except those with special reasons, of course. And our dear leader managed to say he FORGOT about today's meeting. For once, I am wishing someone can go to hell. Literally.

What kind of leader ditches his/her team to go home? And when called to go back, he/she says he/she can't because he's/she's already near home. What kind of stupid lame excuse is that? I was called back once too, and I did go back. I know it's irritating. But as a leader, it is your responsibility. You (the one who'd left and never came back) have no right to say that the in-charge called you to say that you were suitable but were afraid of jealousy from others. Even if it is a lie. You still have no right. I don't understand how you even have the face and guts to say this kind of thing. Even the person you mentioned who got into SC was more suitable than you will ever be.

You said that when not given responsibility, you will not act. The same goes for me. But I had purposely given you this important role. You must be glad that you'd let me down since I'm not your mother. It's already too kind to say you'd let me down. The rest of the team had to suffer too. What is project work? What is a team for? For working together. For thinking together. For helping each other. Not and never will be for doing individual work. It never will be. What the heck did you mean by you will do the rest?

Out of so many promises you had made, you only kept your promise for one in ratio to a thousand other promises. Since you'd never even made so many promises, you can go a do the math and see just how many promises you had kept to.

But I need to thank the rest of my teammates too. They sacrificed themselves and were present at the meeting. I'm really grateful. Thanks!